Catharsis

Dear everybody, I have been gone for a few days now, because I have been contemplating shutting down this blog. I always figured that the best way to do it is to just walk away and not say a word. Just disappear. And that was what I planned to do. The reasons are many, and you’ve probably heard them all before. But I guess the main reason was related to what happened in the last referendum, and how it was ignored by all the known big-time bloggers ( Like Buzzmachine, LGF, Instapundit, Andrew Sullivan, Dailykos) and the MSM in the US. It was like everyone chose to ignore the event, or the events that happened afterwards, and act as if the referendum was all right, that the constitutional amendment was fair, and that Egypt would soon join Lebanon and Iraq in the democratic Arab countries club. It didn’t matter how much I and every other Pro-Democracy Egyptian bloggers wrote about it, the story was never really picked up. It made me feel as if we were yelling at the storm, as if we were ineffectual and completely on our own. That we, the Egyptians, were sold out for some inexplicable reason by the rest of the world and were left completely out in the cold. That idea, naturally, left me all kinds of depressed and feeling as if this whole blogging for democracy and reforms thing was a dangerous futile waste of time. Futile because nothing would ever change and dangerous because no one will look out for us or help us out if “they” ever came after any of us. However, after some soul searching and some introspection to reassess the reasons why I started this blog in the first place, I realized that I was being a whiney bitch and that there is no way in hell that I would chose to end it. Screw it! So what if it’s futile and dangerous? I knew that when I first started this blog; that it was just going to be me ranting and raving so openly about all the things that piss me off, especially the extreme senseless anti-Americanism prevalent in this country. And yet I’ve been proven wrong at that, because everyday I get e-mails from Egyptians telling me how much they agree with me and what I have to say, which gives me hope that I am making a difference in some way. So what if we were sold out by the MSM? Like they ever do their job right anyway? And so what if the big bloggers ignored us? It’s their blogs, they can chose to post whatever they want on them (I know I do) and it’s not like we need them. It’s not like freedom in Egypt is dependent on Instapundit or Andrew Sullivan paying attention to what’s going on in the most populated Arab Islamic country (even though they should). It is, however, dependent on Egyptians paying attention, Egyptians demanding change, and Egyptians acting out and doing what they believe to be right, no matter how dangerous or futile it may be in this country of ours. We should never quit, even if everyone sells us out, because we are fighting for our country and our rights. We should never compromise, even in the face of Armageddon, because that’s where we are heading anyway if things stay the way they are. We should never hide or be afraid, even if the security forces clamp down on us and our activities after the September elections- which I believe they will- because they rely on our fear of them to do whatever they want. Not this time you bastards. We have been living in fear for far too long and by doing that we have screwed this country over. Not anymore! It stops here. At least for me! We have to stand our ground and stand up for what we believe in; otherwise we deserve whatever happens to us on the hands of the tyrants who rule us. I say screw them. It’s either us or them, and I am not going anywhere. The Sandmonkey